For the very first time since Amy Winehouse was found dead at her London home in July her devastated finance Reg Traviss opens up his heart to talk about the terrible day he learned the love of his life had died.
Today the couple were meant to be celebrating Amy’s 28th birthday on a romantic Caribbean holiday together, instead he speaks of his awful grief at losing the woman he planned to make his wife and spend the rest of his life with.
British film producer Reg, 34, knows in his heart he’ll have to live with the decision he made not to stay at Amy’s home the night before she died for many moons to come.
But it was a happy time for the showbiz couple and she was very excited about him escorting her to a friends wedding on the Sunday.
Here Reg speaks abut how he heard the news of the Back To Black singers death:
“I had gone out to get all my stuff ready for the wedding. It was on a Saturday. I was calling her but couldn’t get hold of her. I had spoken to her earlier on the Friday night before she went to bed.
“I was going to go over with a takeaway on the Saturday night and sit in. We were going to the wedding on the Sunday. We were talking on Friday and I was going to go over, because I was finishing up late at work Â but I couldn’t get hold of her, so I thought she must have fallen asleep.
“I sat in and read a book, still no call back. Met some friends and had a drink. Still no call, or anything. So I went home, sent her a text, saying I was staying up watching a DVD and told her to call as soon as she woke up. If I’d gone over there, I’d have woken her up, we’d have sat up all night watching films.
“I had appointments on Saturday morning Â just normal things, getting Â a Â haircut, pick up shoes and my suit for the wedding. I was thinking it was a bit strange she hadn’t called. I thought I’d get all my stuff done and then head over.
“As I left the hairdressers I saw I had a missed call from Amy’s security guy. She was always misplacing her phone, so I thought she had probably just borrowed his.
“I thought, ‘I won’t call now, I’ll go to my office and pick up some shoes I’d left there and call when I get back’. When I got to the office I rang and spoke to the security guy.
“He just said, ‘Reg. Something terrible has happened’. You could tell in his voice. He said, ‘You better get here straight away’. And that was it. I dropped everything and went.”
Reg added: “It was like everything stopped, like I’d stepped into another reality, a parallel dimension where everything is the same but something is fundamentally wrong.
“You are trying to make sense of it. Keeping yourself together because you know now nothing is going to be the same again, ever.”
Reg also reveals how he’s struggled with the overwhelming suddenness of Amy’s death:
“If there was a steady build-up, then you are at least in a mindset where you are expecting the next thing to happen.
“But this was very much someone who was completely normal, happy, healthy, talking about the future.
“Of all the people I have known Amy was the most genuine.
“She lived a very normal life. She was really good to live with. She liked watching TV a lot. She liked to make me something to eat when I got in from work. She liked making food and cooking. That was important to her.
“If I got home late she would wait up. She was maybe a bit old-fashioned.
“She was very feminine. She was domestic. She enjoyed being like that.
“We would have been on holiday right now. We would have gone to the Caribbean last week for her 28th birthday and also one of her friends who lives there.
“We had spoken about getting married. She had spoken to members of my family about it. It is something that was going to happen.”
“I’ve thought about Amy’s legacy. She used to have a picture of Elvis in her room. She also liked Marilyn Monroe.
“Amy didn’t see herself as being in the same category as them, but I personally thought she was in that bracket.
“She will be remembered as a world class icon as a singer, but also as a personality and as someone who is a real figure of subculture.”