On the episode 18 of Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, Taylor Armstrong was seen for the first time after her divorce announcement to her late husband, Russell Armstrong.

She gave her insight and described her feelings to one of the Real Housewives friends Dana Wilkey.

She said, “The majority of my friends are in Hawaii which is difficult because I’m going through the toughest time of my life.  The last couple of weeks have been hell.”

Taylor also said that she gave all her best on making the marriage work.

“I have given everything I can and I have been to counseling with him and without him I have tried to change myself. There’s no way we can be together. ”

Taylor revealed that she has a hard time not having her friends around.

“It’s really hard not to have my friends not standing up for me.”

Dana responded by saying, “You deserve for them to be better for you.”

“I think they are going to come around.”

Taylor then added, “I just need to learn to be on my own and to learn that I deserve something better.”

The reports on Russel’s abuse to Taylor is not a secret to everyone as it was on the news last August 2011.

While Taylor talked about her depressing divorce, other housewives was in Hawaii to celebrate Kyle’s husband, Mauricio’s birthday.

Kim was so late on the vacation that made everyone disappointed.

Kim and Ken, her new boyfriend did not go to the boat trip they all have planned on going to.

Kyle and Lisa tried to wake them up but did not work.

Later on, at dinner, Kim and Kyle had tension surfacing towards them as Kyle questioned Kim why she did not join the boat trip.

When the tension was rising, Ken said that they don’t care what everyone feels.

To avoid further tension, Kim and Ken went back to their room.

Brandi Glanville said that she thinks Kim has an addiction and Ken is an enabler.

Brandi said, “I’m pretty sure there is substance abuse going on.”

“You just have to wait she’ll come to a point where she hits a wall and asks for help.”